Wednesday, February 20, 2008
James + God This few years of journey with God had not been easy... Taking a rest with Jesus during the journey is very important... Sometimes I tried to take a nape, just want to forget all the disappointed area in life, but it didn't work for me. I have told God before if my life is going to affect others, do bring me out of his leadership. I don't want to be like David, during 3 quarter of his journey with God, he started to be unfaithful to his promise. I had finally started my attachment. I can really difference shape the world and The Kingdom of God much better. Thank God that he had told me how to love my emery and treat them well. This year i had went to the LC held at KL... It's i very refreshing moment for me. I feel more of wanting to fly with God in all my direction and plan. I had learn on my first teaching:
- Loyalty to ppl comes first before i can involve them to serve.
- I must see the value of loyalty
- remember to keep on reminding each other about God's covenant.
2nd teaching:
- Loyalty is a chose of our heart.
- Loyalty is with action in continually (not half hearted)
- It is to be express.
3rd teaching:
- God confirm my loyalty(Eg: Job)
- Do not be self confidence (Eg: Peter)
- In order to have more seed soul out, i need to do/ depend on God more.
- God's kingdom is growing, I need to move quick.
- God want to increase me, even there is problems.
4th teaching:
- Talk something that make sense because anointed ppl do that.
5th teaching:
- Attitude in loyalty . see the good not the fault more of a member
6th teaching:
- Patriarchate leaders and pastor
Over all God want:
to increase me help me even though this difficult time
me to go to him more in order to solve the issue
me to let go and let him handle.
me to know that loyalty come first involve love, value, willingness and devotion.
This year my forcus will be all expect in life... to build back a trust worthy son, a loyalty man, good example in school/family/social. without all this true testimony, I'm nothing at all, i can't say that i'm follow Jesus if there is no character and attitude change. I need to learn how to bring up the good name of God. Not to disgrace it, not to ruin away.
Now nothing seems to be moving... no amazing story... no new revival... in my heart. I feel very still... But i can see that my most treasure God is moving.... he actually heal me on my bold leg, let me see new members, let me feel that i'm love.
This year Chinese New Year, i had done a bake cheese cake for me uncle family, after a long 1 year of promise to him. I felt glad that i had done the right choice.. Y?? my uncle saw my loyalty to serve the family... This year Chinese New Year have been very worthy i had grape opportunity to talk with my uncles and aunts into their life. I have learn to be
part and not to be
a part. respond more, talk more, help more is the key.
I had though that i have not been a good shepherd... It seems like i don't know how to care for them... not able to guide well in their Spiritual life.. Have i really affected them.... i have really no answer to this.. I wanna learn, i wanna grow God. I'm not superman or batman.. my wisdom got its limit. I need leader's guidances. I'm tired of talking....
Poly/DI camp is coming.. . but i will not be able to attend all session.. attachment makes me tired. but it helps to mold me in my patience...
Now how i really feel is like the song "Divine exchange".... All I want to do now....
it got me home
7:53 PM
