Growth
Here am I going to share about how I grow stronger with God, in my spiritual as well as my physical life. When I’m a young believer in DI, my personality was a joker. Love to tell joke while talking with people. A guy who was shy to share testimony too. Always use to hide away. Nothing would be good from me, even if I’m welling to share a testimony, its going to take long time. Remember the longest I can share is 30mins to 45mins. This shows that how poor my speech can be. There was also a period that I don’t use to read bible too. I will just felt very sleepy while I’m reading it. Through out all this negative side of me, some things push me to move on to continue serving God’s kingdom. It a heart, a welling and desire heart for God. To let him use me, to changing people life. It’s all about how much I trust and love God, which pushes me to be welling to change, in my character. Not to be sleepy but enjoy reading the word of God. I prayed almost every day, even every time as I took out my bible to read. Learn to be determined. And of cause I even learn to show God that I want to grow in my speech, vocabulary as well as the grammar, leadership skill by writing down, checking dictionary, seek every opportunity to improve myself.(eg: sharing of testi, taking some small role.)

After all the spiritual battle, I even went through physical battle too. There was a time where my shepherd back sided. It was a really great challenge for me to guide my heart right. There will be surely had emotional pain, letting go of friendship and etc, I had to face. I need to keep on reminding myself, and even need God to guide me overcome it and even knowing my goal and vision with God. Thank God that now I’m able to let go of this friendship, because I had known the purpose and the reason why I’m here for. It’s all because of Jesus, I’m living for him. It’s he who gives me all the blessing; it’s him who wants me to go through all this testing so I will be able to grow well as well as to get a better life. Like a pot of flowers, in order to grow well/look nice, it needs to “pxxxx” way the dead leaves. Jesus is like the gardener and we are the pot of flower. I’m so thankful to God that he moulds me to grow as an adult now. The great battle in our life it’s not the world or evil spirit but it is we, ourselves. I have started to trust in God, while I’m leading now; it’s never difficult to grow as a leader, as long as you are welling to let him take control in all circumstances. I would encourage you brother and sister to grow. Dar to take up the role of leadership as a shepherd or a care leader, because I have seen how God’s blessing pour down to me as I serve him whole heartedly. I’m now more joyful then before. Last word for you. Do you still trust in Jesus!

it got me home
10:21 PM